Slowly Slowly...

I find it funny that I get all "freaky-outy" about losing weight and I lose four pounds despite not being consistent with my workouts. I'm behind on my goal but I seriously thought that I was gaining weight despite all my work. It also didn't help that I recently had my hair cut much shorter than it was, so I was wondering if I'd actually lost most of that weight in hair!

But in all seriousness it was a surprise to me. I had been stuck in the land of "one to two pounds which is normal fluctuation thus not really weight loss" for so long, I kept checking the screen when it read 267 (just so you know, I used my WiiFit board, hence the screen).

I may not drop as much as I'd like to before August, but I'm happy that things are actually moving!

It will get better, just not now

Today is hard for me. I'm sure you all have had days like this, especially when trying for a baby. We aren't trying yet, but there have been many times when it seems like I may be pregnant anyway. Today is one of those days.

I knew my new medication could cause me to skip a period as I got used to it. It was in the medication instructions. The instructions also indicated that I should do a pregnancy test anyway just in case. So I made plans to do so this morning. Yet for the past few days before, I've been nauseous and threw up Saturday and Sunday evening. Even now I'm still feeling pretty awful.

And yet, there it sits. A pregnancy test that bold proclaims I'm not pregnant. It makes me so mad. It's like my body enjoys messing with me. I know that there is still a chance that I am and the HCG hasn't   built up enough to be measured. It happens often so I have a second test I'll used in a few days. But that's doesn't make it hurt any less.

I hope that other don't have to go through this like I do. May your journey to pregnancy be easier than my own.