Slowly Slowly...

I find it funny that I get all "freaky-outy" about losing weight and I lose four pounds despite not being consistent with my workouts. I'm behind on my goal but I seriously thought that I was gaining weight despite all my work. It also didn't help that I recently had my hair cut much shorter than it was, so I was wondering if I'd actually lost most of that weight in hair!

But in all seriousness it was a surprise to me. I had been stuck in the land of "one to two pounds which is normal fluctuation thus not really weight loss" for so long, I kept checking the screen when it read 267 (just so you know, I used my WiiFit board, hence the screen).

I may not drop as much as I'd like to before August, but I'm happy that things are actually moving!

Baby Letters and the New Medication Waiting Game

Hello all!

Lately in attempt to quell some of my baby envy I've started at Baby Letter journal. So far I've only written one, but that's mainly because that one made me cry pretty hard. It seems like the closer I get to August, the worse it gets. It really doesn't help that I'm on the latter half of a new birth control and its a toss up as to whether or not I'll have a period this month because of it. Since this medication is vastly different, its an agonizing waiting game as I would have started yesterday, but not this time around. ARGH!

So I don't leave you all on that note, here is the first Baby Letter. (Note: When I reread this to make sure it was ready to post, guess who cried again...)

April 23, 2012

3 months 1 week and 1 day until TTC

Dear Little One,

        Hello there. You don’t know me yet, but someday you will call me Momma. I’ve been waiting a long time for you and it won’t be long before your Daddy and I will be ready to be blessed with tiny you. God already knows who you will be, what you will look like, all those wonderful things that make you who you are. I don’t know this though, and I’m so looking forward to finding out.

        I’d like to tell you some things about your Daddy and me. My name is Rachel and Daddy’s name is James. He is 26 years old and I’m 25, though by the time you are born, we will be older than that. Your daddy and I met when we were in high school and dated a LONG time before getting married January 1^st 2010.  We recently moved in with your Nonni, whose name is Pam, and her big orange cat Fenton. I think you will like him as much as we do. He’s very friendly.

        Though your daddy and I have been married for two years, we had to wait for a long time for you. This was hard for me because your momma is not a very patient person. I hope I’m better at that by the time you are here in my arms. I’m sure God will help me make those changes.  Your daddy is better at this because changes are huge for him and having you means he had another person to take care of. That can be scary. But he really wants to meet you, just as much as I do. Never doubt that.

        I love you so very much even though you are not here yet.

                Love,

                        Momma